Hi guys, I just thought I would update you on my strive for independence since I left home last month, since a lot of people that read my blog about how anxious I was were really supportive!
The first few weeks were a complete whirlwind of emotions- I was moving in with a bunch of strangers that I didn't know, and a lot of the time that I was in the flat, I would just retreat to my bedroom, which just made me anti-social to my flatmates, but they have really made me feel at home and I feel really comfortable with them; my flatmates are really awesome people, and I don't think I would get any better ones than these right now :).
I was also missing home a bit, because of the comforts of not having to pay rent (even though I was doing so at my parents) and being more spontaneous with my money.
Overall, I think I was just a mix of anxious, sad, and homesick, which made me so moody with my friends and work colleagues, because I just felt so unsettled, especially because I had no control over what was going on in my life in terms of work shifts, which meant no time to focus on the shop, which meant no income from my business and that made me more anxious... I was just an emotional mess!
On the flip side though, I have actually grown a lot in self confidence, and I have developed a lot more of a no-nonsense attitude which I used to rarely have before, and I've become a lot happier in myself, which is what I've longed for too. Even though I was in a dark place for a while, I'm glad I pushed myself through (with the help of a few loved ones) through to the other side, and smiling :).
I also love the new independence and responsibility I now have, so even though I feel guilty for treating myself occasionally, I know that I'm doing something very positive because I'm more conscious of my spending, whilst having a lot of emotional freedom... it has made me have a "f**k it" attitude to any self-doubting or when I feel I shouldn't do something!
I'm now on a mission to create an even work/business/life balance, which would be hard work, and time to get it right, but I'm more determined and focused and happier than ever.
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