I absolutely love being a mum- it's the best gift that God could ever give me, and then some. I'm not going to lie, it has been mega stressful and tiring, but it's worth waking up to this beautiful face every day. I do have my days where I'm mega anxious about if I'm doing anything right, but I'm also still learning too :).
The first night from hospital was pretty surreal, it felt weird that just 24 hours before, I was a mum to be, being wheeled into hospital whilst in labour and then to be carrying my baby girl out of hospital into the car seat in the cab, and it was the best feeling ever. I was also very drained from all that blood loss and 2nd degree tear (ouch!) and the fact that it all was such a quick labour made me feel a bit dazed too.
These past few weeks have been very, very emotional. I am JUST surviving on 4 hours broken sleep, and I have been on and off that couch in efforts for my other half to try and get some sleep, and I'm a bit anxious of moments where my little Amara doesn't stop crying, or doesnt settle, even when being fed or changed, but I'm slowly getting used to it and trying not to get worked up- it's awesome what going for a walk with your little one does for you!
I'm just hoping that she starts getting used to the times when she SHOULD be sleeping and give her mummy and daddy a break :)
Ify Katherine xo
